Wednesday, June 23, 2010

OmJ BoYz

Uh...more boy drama!!!! Ok so guy number1 is totally in and we are talking and he said we could go on a date. Guy number2 is completely gone. Guy number3 is still here but i know that its not romantic and crap. Now there is new guy :(. I know him from skool and he is a football player and kool but i never thought about it ever going anywhere. Here is the problem, we started texting and he made me laugh. Right there its off to a bad start haha. Then he is sweet...my life sucks. And wut sucks even more is that he is best frinds with guy number1! I cant help but feel happy talking to him cuz he is just like me, and i hate feeling sad so i talk about fun things and thats wut he does and even wen im sad he makes me laugh which is wut i do and i really dont want to fall for him. There is nothing wrong with him its just that it would make everything so damn confusing and it is too confusing as it is. :( :( :(

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

OmJ

So guy number2 is now totally out of the question. We were dating for 2 days and he said he loved me...bluh!!! And of course i was ewwd out and told him and he got all mad. And i said we didnt know each other and he said well how long have we been talkin and its only been a month since we met so all of it was icky and just words. And just to be mean [:)] i told him i was going on a date since we fought and arent together and he asked me if we were still together and i said do you want to be and he was like yea and i said i really liked this other guy who is totally guy number1 lol. He acted all obsessive...so he is gone and i think guy number3 is gone too so i guess i get the one i kind of wanted all along but was strayed away from with words, guy number1! He is soo cute and my type and awesome! I just hope his date with another girl this weekend totally sucks giant dick! I know that is wrong to say but i would be really good for him...

WOW wow WOW

Guy number2 said he loves me...weird. Ok so we are kinda dating but still we barely know each other...i dont know it seems weird to me and its kinda awkward...i dont know he is probably just playin.

WoW

WoW i didnt know how attracted i feel to guy number2. He has a way with words lol. He makes me want to do *things* with him so much! He says he wants me with him right now and says he wants to kiss me and hold me and tickle me haha. He is so corny but its kind of cute.

More ugh...ugh

Ok well wen i read a book about a girl stuck with three guys i allways think to date them all (if you dont have a heart or if they cant know) or pick the one that isnt the best or the least, the middle one who is perfect. The only problem is that guy number1 wen i think about it, he is a great guy but he isnt ready to commit or be as real as i need. He has moments that i love but i just dont know. Guy number3 is also the weaker link because i dont see myself falling for him. He is always sad and i dont want that. Ding ding ding the winner is guy number2...not. He is the one i kinda want but people are always taking his phone so i dont know the real him...i know bits and pieces but what i truly know is great. He is sexy and fun and cute and romantic and if i decided to do anything dot dot dot with him, it would be crazy and very naughty but great. Now saying that, i still kinda want guy number1. He is so cute and my type and wouldnt be as naughty in bed as sweet and classic lol. Now i cant see myself doing anything with guy number3... saying that i now think i might go for guy number2. I feel such a connection to him, sexually, and just on a real level. Please use the poll and help me out.

ugh...

Im upset right now cause i think im in love with neither of those guys. Me and this guy have been frinds and he has such a sweet side. I new i loved him but i thought i wasnt in love with him and i saw him everyday and talked to him alot but he changed phones and i havent been in touch with him for a month and i went on facebook and saw him and everything started. He was my best frind and i loved him and he would pick me up and we'd laugh and he would hold me and i took him for granted and he liked me but wouldnt admit it and he listened to me and i wish he was here. I love him, i dont know which kind of love yet cause im so confused with guys but all i know is that it hurts and i just want to hug him and laugh and feel okay. I have no clue what to do with guys, they are all great but my heart is being a ratard. When my sister gets married there are going to be alot of guys hitting on me and honestly im scared and excited. I need a new guy who i cant keep running back to cause he'll live far away. I think the problem is that i like the attention with these guys and i see them everyday and talk to them everyday so i keep running back. They dont hurt me its just i know in my heart they arent right for me and i dont like them and i hurt them. Like this one guy who was obsessed with me and i kept using him and hurt him alot but i keep going back to talkin to him cause i like how he makes me feel pretty. I hate hurting these people but i dont know what to do. Should i go for the guy who is kool and totally my type but popular: guy number1 OR the guy who is romantic and cute and sexy but not my type: guy number2 OR the guy i can talk to and just lay around with and who will protect and care for me: guy number3. Let me just make it clear that all these guys have a sweet spot and are cute and all are athletic and could and would put up a fight for me. I think im going to see how it plays out with all of them and i dont know maybe it'll just click. I know i love guy number3 but i dont think its the kind of love i need. I keep falling deeper and deeper for guy number2. Guy number1 ive liked for almost a year but i think it might be too late for him to catch me. Im so crazy confused. I love qualities in all these guys and i know that guy number1 would take me to an lsu game for a date and then take me home and dance to crazy music with me: guy number2 would take me to the movies and then walk on the beach and kiss me in the moonlight: guy number3 would rent a movie and cook for me and then hold me tight while we watched a scary movie. What sucks is all of those dates are perfect. I dont know what to do.

Monday, June 21, 2010

OmJ

Ok so you know how i told yea about the guys...well guy number1 doesnt talk to me alot and me and guy number2 text like every waking hour lol we do this thing which is kinda cheesy but we have these dates that we text since we cant go out and his was kinda really sweet. Like he said he'd take me to the movies and then he'd cook me dinner and then we'd walk on the beach and talk and then we'd talk under the covers and eat hot chocolate and then go to sleep and he'd make me pancakes for breakfast lol its cheesy but it was sweet...help me make the choice...